Today, I wonder what it would be like to have a two year old in the mix. I have a picture in my mind of what he would look like as a toddler...dark curly hair, dimpled face, his daddy's eyes...I have a picture in my mind of what he would be getting in to. A picture of him walking or running around...a picture of him throwing his arms around his mama or daddy in a bear hug...a picture of him playing with his brothers and sisters...a picture of him terrorizing his brothers and sisters...a picture of him sitting around the table with his family for dinner...a picture of his adorable first words...a picture is worth a thousand words. A picture in my mind...
I have a picture in my mind of a dark curly haired, dimpled face little boy running around on streets of gold...sitting at the feet of Jesus...I often wonder what he is doing. I can not even fathom how amazing Heaven is and just how perfect his life is now. My mind can only conjure pictures of earthy beauty and I know that can not even compare to the beauty my baby boy beholds daily. I'm pretty sure he is not going to be having a party in Heaven tomorrow to celebrate his second birthday because time is not measured by days, weeks, months, or years there. Perhaps every moment is a celebration in heaven. I just do not know...but I do have a picture in my mind. It gives me comfort and peace to dream.
I have a picture in my mind of a day when I will meet my Lord and Savior...of a day that I fall at His feet and praise Him in person. I have a picture in my mind of the day that I will get to hold Eli again...of the day that I kiss his sweet face again. Maybe he will show me the streets of gold that day. Maybe he will take my hand and say, "Come on Mama. Let's go meet Jesus." Until that day, I'll hold on to the pictures in my mind.
I am so thankful that I serve a God who will one day redeem my past, holds my present, and promises my future.
Happy Second Birthday, my sweet Eli. Mama misses you more than words. I love you baby boy!