Sunday, March 21, 2010

His Shield About Us

Psalm 55:22
22 Cast thy burden upon the LORD, and he shall sustain thee: he shall never suffer the righteous to be moved.

It has been one month today.  One month of tears, love, realization of a miracle, joy, pain, sorrow, longing, and many more emotions. It has also been a month of casting our burdens upon the Lord and trusting that he will sustain us.  Really we did this back on November 30th when we found out that Eli's kidneys were not functioning. We knew that in order to give God all of the glory for Eli, we had to.  I do give God the glory for bringing us to the point we are today.  Without Him we would be emotionally destitute.  We would have no hope for a future with Eli.  I do not mean an earthly future.  I mean a Heavenly future.  I hold on to the hope that I WILL meet my son again and hold to him. My earthly future with Eli consists of amazing of a miracle...a place in my heart reserved for him.  Although my heart seems to be in many, many pieces at the present, it is nonetheless full of love.
This past month, I have seen the hand of my Lord in everything.  He has worked in wonderous ways.  He is carrying us through a storm unlike any other. Through this storm, His provisions have left me speechless.  I have experienced amazing grace, amazing love, amazing friendship and so many more things.

The amazing grace I speak of is in every aspect of my life.  God is ever present.  Even when I do not have the words to tell him what I need to, He knows.  He hears my groanings and knows my heart.  He intercedes for me.
Romans 8:26
    26Likewise the Spirit also helpeth our infirmities: for we know not what we should pray for as we ought: but the Spirit itself maketh intercession for us with groanings which cannot be uttered.

God has provided such amazing love during this valley.  He has shown unconditional love, but also has given me a wonderful family that has done the same.  The love they have so freely given astounds me.  I am so thankful for each and every one of them. 

I have affirmed friendships and made new friendships this past month.  The compassion of people has been such a blessing in my life.  God has truely blessed me with such amazing friends.  It seems that God has sent one friend or another at just the right moment so many times.  God knows when I have been in need of a shoulder, an uplifting word, a bright face, or just someone to cry with. He has provided every time. 

This past month has been full without a doubt. We are in the midst of a storm. Our Heavenly Father has placed his arms around us and continues to shield us. 
Ephesians 6:16-17 

16Above all, taking the shield of faith, wherewith ye shall be able to quench all the fiery darts of the wicked.
17And take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God:



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  2. Okay - for the record - I did not put anything bad in my previous comment. I had been told that a couple of people could not leave comments and I was testing it.

    But since I'm here, I will say that I couldn't possibly ask for a better, stronger, more beautiful wife (who is also a good cook). I loved you from the first time we met and I love love you even more today!

  3. I don't know you--I came across your blog through a comment you left on the blog for Whitney Jill (I don't know her parents personally either--just know of them through a mutual friend). But I wanted to take time to read your story and to let you know that I did so. To let you know that even though I don't know you, I cried for you and for your loss tonight. I too am a believer in Christ. I know there are no words I can share with you except to tell you that I am thinking of you and will continue to do so, even though I don't know you. That I love the name you chose for your son (Eli), and that now that I know about you and your story, I will continue to lift you up in prayer in the coming weeks and months. I can't imagine your hurt, but I share in your hope. God's blessings on you for peace this night.

  4. Jennifer, I have just read your posts and my heart aches. Your grief, heartbreak and faith touches the very depth of my soul. I cry out to God for you. May he continue to give you peace and comfort because there is no doubt you are resting in His hand. Joyce Manning