22 Cast thy burden upon the LORD, and he shall sustain thee: he shall never suffer the righteous to be moved.
It has been one month today. One month of tears, love, realization of a miracle, joy, pain, sorrow, longing, and many more emotions. It has also been a month of casting our burdens upon the Lord and trusting that he will sustain us. Really we did this back on November 30th when we found out that Eli's kidneys were not functioning. We knew that in order to give God all of the glory for Eli, we had to. I do give God the glory for bringing us to the point we are today. Without Him we would be emotionally destitute. We would have no hope for a future with Eli. I do not mean an earthly future. I mean a Heavenly future. I hold on to the hope that I WILL meet my son again and hold him...talk to him. My earthly future with Eli consists of amazing memories...pictures of a miracle...a place in my heart reserved for him. Although my heart seems to be in many, many pieces at the present, it is nonetheless full of love.
This past month, I have seen the hand of my Lord in everything. He has worked in wonderous ways. He is carrying us through a storm unlike any other. Through this storm, His provisions have left me speechless. I have experienced amazing grace, amazing love, amazing friendship and so many more things.
The amazing grace I speak of is in every aspect of my life. God is ever present. Even when I do not have the words to tell him what I need to, He knows. He hears my groanings and knows my heart. He intercedes for me.
26Likewise the Spirit also helpeth our infirmities: for we know not what we should pray for as we ought: but the Spirit itself maketh intercession for us with groanings which cannot be uttered.
God has provided such amazing love during this valley. He has shown unconditional love, but also has given me a wonderful family that has done the same. The love they have so freely given astounds me. I am so thankful for each and every one of them.
I have affirmed friendships and made new friendships this past month. The compassion of people has been such a blessing in my life. God has truely blessed me with such amazing friends. It seems that God has sent one friend or another at just the right moment so many times. God knows when I have been in need of a shoulder, an uplifting word, a bright face, or just someone to cry with. He has provided every time.
This past month has been full without a doubt. We are in the midst of a storm. Our Heavenly Father has placed his arms around us and continues to shield us.
16Above all, taking the shield of faith, wherewith ye shall be able to quench all the fiery darts of the wicked.
17And take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God: