Monday, February 21, 2011

Happy First Birthday My Sweet Eli!

To my sweet Eli,

There are no words to express how very much I miss you today. Today you are one year old and I can only imagine the wonderful celebration you are having in Heaven.  Your brothers, sister and I are going to make you a birthday cake today.  The selfish parts of me wish that you were here to play in your first cake and enjoy our love for you on such a wonderful milestone. Dear Lord, how I long to hold you and kiss you.  I know the celebration you are having is unimaginably greater than anything we could do for you here.
You, my sweet little boy, have changed me so much in this last year. You have touched so many. I want you to know how proud I am of you.  I count it great joy that I got to carry you in my belly for 32 weeks and then hold your tiny little body as you slipped from this earth. You are and always will be a huge part of this family...my fourth child.
I often sit and dream about what you are doing up in Heaven.  I can not even begin to imagine how wonderful it is there.  Do you realize that you have been there for a year now, or do you have no concept of time?  How many new friends have you made?  Does Jesus put you on his lap and tell you stories? I imagine that you are walking and running around in Heaven...but really, I have no idea.  So, I am left to dream of you in your Heavenly home...and dream I do. I pray to God every day to tell you how much I love you and miss you. Do you know that you are soon going to be a big brother?  How exciting!
I love you little man and I wish you the best first birthday ever!  We have a cake to make and balloons to send your way.
Happy Birthday Eli!
I love you more than words,
Mama

10 comments:

  1. Happy Birthday Eli. Floaty kisses....

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  2. Happy 1st Birthday Sweet Eli!!!! You've made such a beautiful impact here on earth. I pray that your family will be blessed with the most lovely celebration of your life and the amazing way you've changed each of their lives! Hugs, peace, and love to you today Jennifer.

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  3. Happy Birthday sweet Eli!
    It's amazing how God is still at work here on earth through your brief but profound life! I cannot imagine all the amazing things you have seen and done in heaven over this past year on earth!

    Praying for you Jennifer (and family) today and always. Hope you will share pictures of your cake and balloon release! ;)

    Lots of Love,
    Melissa

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  4. Happy Birthday Eli!!!

    Thank you, Jennifer for so beautifully expressing the emotions of today. (((Big Hugs))).

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  5. Happy Birthday to Eli and I hope that you have a peaceful day Jennifer. I do like to think that the celebrations in Heaven are so much more wonderful than what our children would have experienced on Earth, but it doesn't seem to make you miss those lost loved ones anymore.

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  6. Happy Birthday Eli ♥ Love to you all

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  7. Wishing Eli a very Happy 1st Heavenly Birthday and his Mama a very peaceful day. (((HUGS)))

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  8. HAPPY 1ST BIRTHDAY ELI!!!!
    I think and pray for you and your sweet family each day.
    Jennifer - words cannot express the my feelings...I cry with you...I hurt with you...and also rejoice with you in celebrating Eli's birthday.
    Eli - have a wonderful birthday!!!!!

    Love n Christ
    kim

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  9. Happy 1st Birthday to Eli! I hope that he and Aubree are celebrating together! I can almost hear their laughter now! I am praying for your family and sending you lots of love!

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  10. Happy belated birthday to Eli, I love the celebration you had for him and read this when you first posted, sorry so long to leave a comment!!!

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