Monday, February 8, 2010

Treasures New and Not So New

We celebrated my grandmother's 80th birthday this past weekend.  She was given a beautiful birthday party and I think she had a good time.  I had a good time also.  We got to take a trip down memory lane Saturday.  My Aunt Beth and Cousin Beverly compiled over 400 pictures and put them on a digital frame.  We got to spend some time talking about Ray (my granddaddy) who is home with the Lord, Ray Wilkes (my brother) who went home to be with the Lord at 16, and Mitch (my cousin) who went home at 24. There were photos of things long forgotten and of things we wished we could forget.  It was wonderful!  Happy birthday Grandma!

My Grandma and Lucie Rose

I got to spend some time talking to my Uncle David Saturday.  He is Mitch's dad and also the pastor of Marvin Parkway Baptist Church.  The thoughts that I am going to share in this post were shared with me by him.  

This is the day which the Lord hath made; we will rejoice and be glad in it. Psalm 118:24

I have heard that verse time and time again throughout my life and sang the song based on the verse over and over.  Never once have I REALLY understood it until Saturday.  When you look at it do you think, like me, "Well we should just rejoice because God has given us this day." I do not feel like rejoicing at this particular time in my life! I feel like crying, screaming, anything but rejoicing.  Do not get me wrong, I do rejoice when I feel Eli wiggle around.  I rejoice when I think of the prospect of holding him in my arms.  Then my rejoicing turns to "Why Lord?, Why Eli? Why my family? Why have you chosen this trial for me?".  My Uncle David gave me a new perspective where that verse is concerned.  He said that he also, in the midst of grief, did not feel like rejoicing at one point in his life and God spoke to him and told him that he did not understand that verse as it is written.  He said God told him that verse does not say we are rejoicing right now, but that we WILL rejoice. Hmm....
If God does choose perform a miracle with my precious Eli, I will rejoice and the burden of these last few months will be lifted.  And to be honest with you, today, I cannot let my mind go elsewhere.  The thought of empty arms is too much...
Please pray with me for God to heal our baby. 
Love you much, 


  1. Precious. I never realized that "will rejoice" was in there rather than "do rejoice" either. (I've said it but didn't realize it.) We are praying for healing every day, as well as praying for strength, comfort, and that God is and will continue to carry you sheltered in the palm of His hand.
    Love you!

  2. You have such a wonderful way with words! I know that we will rejoice when Eli enters this world surrounded by family that loves him so very much! I love you and am praying for a miracle for Eli and also praying for strength for all of you! Love you so much!! Rachel

  3. May God bless you and your precious family! His peace is such a blessing for all of us that have had to say an earthly good-bye and understand the angels had such a beautiful Hello to our little ones! It is such a comfort to know that our little boys are in our future, and I am so thankful to know that we will have eternity frolicking with those little fellows!!! I will continue holding you and your sweet family in prayer for His peace to hold you firmly in His presence. Blessings to you - Ginger