Broken...It is a word that I use often here lately.
Purpose...Another word I have used over and over.
Friends...Old and new alike...Wow, just wow.
Why...A word that is never far from my thoughts.
This list could go on and on and all of these words have taken on new meanings these last few months. Especially friends...I have so many wonderful friends, ones that I have always had and ones that I have made because of Eli...some that I have never met in person, some that I have only met a time or two, some that I see on a daily basis. God has so wonderfully used these people to encourage and uplift me during this season in my life. I could sit and write to you all day long about how God has worked through these people. I am so very thankful for them.
I'll be honest with you, I have really been dreading Mother's Day this year. I know that I have to put on a happy face and deal because of J, C, and LR. I wouldn't dare think of making this day bad for them or spoiling there fun. I just feel that if I can not celebrate surrounded by all of my children then I do not want to celebrate at all. I feel so selfish and guilty thinking this way. I have prayed for peace and God has been working.
He has been working through my friends. I got an email from a friend that I have made on this journey and she told me of God strongly urging her to pray for me. So she did. Two other friends that I have met on this journey came by my house today and brought the sweetest gifts by. I want to share one of these with you tonight. My friend Kim brought me the most beautiful hand painted wooden egg.