4Then said the LORD unto Moses, Behold, I will rain bread from heaven for you; and the people shall go out and gather a certain rate every day, that I may prove them, whether they will walk in my law, or no.
We spent the day today picking up pecans. Actually, this is the third Saturday I have picked up pecans. Today, while picking up pecans it occurred to me that this could be what the Children of Israel might have felt like. God provided for His people daily by way of manna or bread from heaven. They had to go out each day and pick up what God had provided for them. As I picked up, I noticed something. I would spot two or three pecans and bend down to pick them up. As I picked them up I would find several more in the same area that I had not seen while standing. One of two things was going on here. Either my eyesight is bad enough I just didn't see them or God was providing as I went along. I'll just believe the latter if you don't mind, thank you! We actually had a really stiff wind today and were literally picking them up as they fell. Once you get out there and start picking up, it is not really that bad. I felt so blessed that I had pecans to pick up. The boys didn't feel as blessed as I did. Lucie Rose thought it was great to pick up a pecan or two, especially when mama was filling her bucket. She is convinced she picked up the most. Amelia Claire was great during our little outing.
One thing that has been a huge adjustment for our family is going from two incomes to one, especially with an extra little person. I will tell you that I completely felt at peace turning in my resignation, knowing that I would be able to stay home with my sweetlings. It was a decision that was made through much prayer and soul searching. I feel like God had been leading us in this direction for some time. It was certainly a step of faith and one that we knew would not come easy. Once you become adjusted to two incomes, it is not easy to voluntarily give that up. It has been a sacrifice for all of us. We are making it from month to month but there is certainly not much room for extras. That is okay. We had too many extras anyway. We ate out way too much among other little things like that. I really have not missed the little things. I would say the kiddos miss them more than Jamie and I. They do complain from time to time and we have to just be honest with them. We tell them that in order to be able to have the privilege of homeschooling, there are things we have to give up. It is not an easy thing to admit to your children that we just do not have the money for that right now. Somehow though, I think that it is important they know those, sometimes tough, life lessons.
I will also tell you that there had been a great deal of guilt on my part since staying home. I feel like there should be some way for me to contribute financially. I try to make sure to be conservative while grocery shopping, while still making sure my family eats well and has a few little extras. That has been my little way of helping out. This has been a real struggle for me though. Jamie is an excellent provider for our family and I am so grateful to him. As grateful as I am, I still would like to make financial contributions just to relieve him from some of the stress. So, when my daddy called and told me that the pecan trees were loaded down at the farm and we could pick them up if we like, I jumped on it. I thought I even had the boys on board and excited and I did...until they actually had to pick them up. I have also had the opportunity to help my mama on the side some. She owns a tea room here in town and also caters. So, on weekends I try to help her when I can. It actually has been very nice to be able to help out some.
To be able to homeschool is an answer to prayer and such a blessing. God's provisions for my family...His manna...is also a great blessing.
Behold the fowls of the air: for they sow not, neither do they reap, nor gather into barns; yet your heavenly Father feedeth them. Are ye not much better than they?